Saturday, December 18, 2010

Written in the Back Pages of The Catcher in the Rye

It's snowing and raining in San Diego.
The tree blossoms are falling and the wind is blowing the fountain into my face.
The weather reminds me of home, in the heart of the Willamette Valley.
How the rain would come down in floods.
How green and lush everything was and is and will be.
How the earth stood still if only for a moment so you could gaze upon it and wonder.
How peaceful everything is,
the trees gently nodding in the wind,
the smell of pine needles on the ground.

The energy of this city resonates with me now.
There is so much to explore and do.
How the sun always seems to be out.
How close the beach is.
How the concrete sculpts a path in the earth.
How little is forgotten and little is remembered.
This is my home now.

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Monday, December 13, 2010

Hannah, John, Joseph

Hannah

The small hairs stand up on the back of Hannah's neck while she waits for the bus. It is cold in Portland tonight.

John

John rolls up the sleaves of his plaid, long-sleave shirt. Now he is truly indie.

Joseph

Joseph pulls the covers over his head. His alarm is set to country.

Michelle

Michelle quietly cries in her car. LIfe is rough sometimes.

Melissa

Melissa checks her watch as she walks quickly. She is late to a doctor's appointment.

Justin

The street reverberates through Justin's shoes when he drives. It feels like a thousand caterpillars crawling on his feet.

George

George holds his girlfriend's hand in the movie theater. Life is good sometimes.

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Sunday, December 12, 2010

One Drink, Two Drink

One drink, two drink.
Red drink, dark drink.

I can't drink anymore.
The beer makes me full.
Please finish my beer
for me tonight.

Conversation and laughter,
a myriad of tangents.
The alcohol opens pores.
It cleanses the palate.

Tall drink, short drink.
Old drink, new drink.

It's loud here but not too loud,
I can still understand you.
I believe my eyesight is going,
I can't read the beer menu.

I frequent the bathroom.
The music here reminds me
of the oldies station I listened to
growing up in a small town.

"From there to here,
from here to there,
funny things
are everywhere."

I might puke if I have another.


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Friday, December 10, 2010

If I build you a wall, will you climb it?

If I make you some porridge, will you eat it?
If I build you a wall, will you climb it?

There is a rumbling in my soul.
It's beginning to sound
like the hunger pains of revolution.

I feel like scatting along to Dizzy Gillespie,
the ecstatic nonsense, cheeks blown,
head bowed to the experimental masters.

I cross out cliches like a priest crosses his heart:
frequently and with a pain for the oppressed.

Little by little, you build the bridge
between what is expected and what is frenetic energy,
your childhood dreams and lusts and doubts.

Shakespeare put it best when he described greatness:
"Some people are born and some people die."
Shakespeare didn't really say that.

Before you begin your journey to sleep,
remember one thing, if you can:
I love you and always will.

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

The Universe, in All Its Infinity

A train passes and I think of infinity,
that stretch of forever and some.
It is my mind that goes on.
The excess of heartbreak.

A man stops my writing to ask for tobacco.
I think of the leaves, to be carrying leaves,
and I tell him no, I don't smoke.
He replies, "Oh, okay then. Very well."

Where was I? Oh yeah. The universe,
in all its infinity and magnitude,
has undoubtably pinpointed you,
will grab you by the shoulders and rough you up.

"You think you can escape unnoticed," it says.
"But I --" you reply. "I was just standing here."
"That's what you'd like to think."
"I was thinking that," you sputter.

The universe has it out for you.
It knows your cousin, deeply.
It will stop at nothing to stop at nothing.
Hungerily, the universe will devour you.

Then you will live in the belly of the universe.
Forever and ever, amen.


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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Masterful, Masterful

Masterful, masterful, the water's full again.
It looks like another rainy day is about to begin.

Masterful, fantastical, there's little left to do.
Harpsichord Christmas music plays on and on.

Lady Macbeth couldn't rub out the spot
and neither can I. These sheets are stained.

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Monday, December 6, 2010

The Old Man on the Bus

The old man on the bus sits with lips pursed,
contemplating the youth in rebellion, the youth.
His glasses are glasses upon glasses, clip on sunglasses.

I watch him watch, each glance from head to toe,
a slight grimace, and an unapologetic turn in disgust.
I think the pink headphones and dreads did him in.

His pale skin, like my skin, reflects the sunlight,
an opaque sheet of paper over pounds of flesh,
millions of cells working simultaneously to sit upright.

I miss my grandfather's skin, his firm grasp.
Is this man on the bus a grandfather? He seems
like he would soon be forgotten to time.

Lazily, he catches me watching him. I look quickly away,
check my shopping bags out of habit.
I don't look back at the old man and time forgets him.

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Sunday, December 5, 2010

I am Writing Now, Yes

The dust settles on my typewriter from unuse.
The walls reverberate with each key pressed.

It is this that I dine on, uncover, and undress.
It is this, this and this, that music questions.

My nails need cut, I need to shave, my hair is long,
yet none of these effect my appetite for revenge.

I am writing now, yes, this is the act of writing.
I am self-reflective now, yes, this is the act of self-reflection.

Sometimes when I get lonely, I look out my window
and wonder if other people are looking out their window too.

It goes bible, bible, cookies on my floor.
My guitar watches this contradiction of spirit.

I am alive, yes, I am alive. Each breath
is a little rejoice of another moment of life.

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Friday, December 3, 2010

Sounds I Can Hear

The Sounds I Can Hear Outside a 1591 Mosque Before the Call to Prayer in a Hidden Part of Istanbul, Turkey

No words out of the man I ask permission to write.
(He only points to his mouth and smiles.)
A murmuring old man, the clip clop of shoes arriving to pray.
Turkish that I do not understand, but sounds like poetry.
Silence in certain places.
The howl of the train.
Children upon children, happy voices.
The plane above, the cloud it passes through.
The birds making nests and other beautiful moments.
Looks and glances.
My own voice asking “Avet, Hayir?” to sit and write.
The sound of a car honking to more children.
The buzz of a door opening.
Another honk of impatience.
A rustle of a plastic bag.
A deep sound in the distance I cannot recognize.
The color of paint, the sound of color.
I hear wrinkles on faces unfold when I speak their language.
Jingle of change, quiet shoes slowly moving, carefully exploring.
The buzz of flies, the onomatopoeia of their movement.
A closer plane.
A piece of plastic turning over.
Leaves moving in the wind.
Traffic on a narrow street, the squeal of a car’s brake.
A close conversation pass.
Avet, avet, avet, avet, avet, avet from a man with a plastic bag.
The hum of a vacuum.
Keys and shoes passing.
The wind, where it travels, its history.
A fly walking carefully like the man walking carefully,
the fly is without shoes and quieter.
Silence in conversation, then it begins again, his voice loud like a whistle.
Another plane with more visitors who will be changed by visiting.
The roll of a baby cart.
Conversations through a gate.
Water being drunk, hands being cleaned, feet being washed.
A cat, angry, meows near by.
The pause before the call to prayer.
Later, I will hear it roar across Istanbul.

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There is a Beginning for Everything

Everything has a beginning. This is the beginning of this blog. With a beginning comes an end. This is the end of this sentence.